Mark Hoppus considered ending his life in 2021 amid his battle with cancer.
“I was sitting in our living room crying and saying to my wife, ‘I don’t know if I can do this,'” the 50-year-old Blink-182 rocker revealed in the latest issue of People.
“She was like, ‘Well, what are you going to do, kill yourself?’ And that’s exactly what I thought. It was pretty dark.”
Hoppus credits wife Skye Hoppus for helping him “break” out of his depression.
“I was like, ‘What if… ty thing to say.’ But also, what kind something to say, like, “Stop it, you f–king baby,” the “What’s My Age Again?” singer said he was thinking after Skye, 50, confronted him.
“You have a cancer that can be beaten. It will suck to get there, but get there.’ I had to do the work.”
Mark said going through chemotherapy was “cruel” and gave him a myriad of symptoms.
“I had no energy and ended up laying on the couch to get through the day,” he explained. “I had the worst brain fog.”
The ‘First Date’ singer added: ‘We were sitting at the table with friends we’ve known for years, and I look at the man on the other side of the table and think to myself, ‘I can’t remember your first name. . ‘ And it was like that all the time. I still feel it every few days – I’ll forget a word – but it’s much better.”
Mark also shared how he found out he was fighting cancer in the first place.
“I texted my doctor, ‘Hey, weird bump on my shoulder. It’s either a pulled muscle or a deadly lymphoma,’ he recalls. “I tried to make a joke of it.”
The father of one was diagnosed with stage 4 lymphoma shortly after and made the news to fans via social media in June 2021.
He recently revealed that the photo he shared on his Instagram at the time – in which he was sitting in a chair with the caption: “Hello, yes. One cancer treatment please” – was accidentally posted and intended to be seen only by his close friends.
“I thought if people found out, it would be like, ‘Haha, f–k you. You’re going to die’ — just the s-ty side of the internet,” Mark told People about going public.
“Instead, everyone thought, ‘You’re going to get through this. It was this outpouring of support from strangers. It gave me so much strength and so much hope.”
In September 2021, Mark revealed on social media that he is cancer-free, but confessed to People that recovery is “taking much longer” than he had hoped.
“But I’m in a much better place,” he added. “I feel like I have a second chance at life.”