Jennifer Lawrence revealed she had two miscarriages earlier this year before giving birth to her son Cy.
The 32-year-old “Hunger Games” star told Vogue in her October 2022 cover story, released Tuesday, that she first became pregnant when she was in her early 20s.
“I only had a miscarriage in Montreal,” Lawrence said, noting that she was “one hundred percent planning to have an abortion.”
She became pregnant again while filming “Don’t Look Up” in 2020 when she and her husband, Cooke Maroney, wanted a baby.
Lawrence miscarried again and received a “D&C,” which is a surgical procedure to remove tissue from the uterus.
“I remember thinking about it a million times when I was pregnant,” the actress recalls, referring to the Supreme Court’s decision to overturn Roe v. Wade.
“I thought about the things that happened to my body. And I had a great pregnancy. I had a very happy pregnancy,” she continued. “But every second of my life was different. And sometimes it occurred to me: what if I was forced to do this?”
The Oscar winner, who first revealed her son’s name in the interview, was also candid about the emotional challenges of becoming a new mom.
“It’s so scary to talk about motherhood. Just because it’s so different for everyone,” she explained.
“If I say, ‘It was great from the start,’ some people will think, ‘It wasn’t great for me in the beginning’ and feel bad. Luckily I have so many friends who were honest.”
Lawrence then brought up a conversation she had while hiking with one of her best friends around nine months into her pregnancy.
“L [was] such as, “Everyone keeps saying I’ll love my baby more than my cat.” But that is not true. Maybe I will love him as much as I love my cat?’”
After welcoming little Cy, the actress said she “fell in love with all the babies everywhere.”
“My heart has stretched to a capacity I knew nothing about,” she gushed.
“The morning after I gave birth, I felt like my whole life had started over. Like, ‘Now is day one of my life.’ I just stared. I was just so in love.”
Lawrence, who said “I do” to Maroney in 2019, previously told Vanity Fair she intended to keep her child’s life private.
“Every instinct in my body wants to protect their privacy for the rest of their lives, as much as I can,” the then-to-be actress said in November 2021.
Lawrence’s boyfriend Ellen DeGeneres then seemingly spilled the beans about her baby’s gender when she called the newborn “him.”
“I hear you talk to him sometimes,” Lawrence’s neighbor DeGeneres said during an interview in May. “It’s so sweet.”