Noah Cyrus is recovering from a Xanax addiction that left her feeling like she was in a “dark, bottomless pit.”
Miley Cyrus’ younger sister, 22, revealed she was 18 when her then-boyfriend first gave her the drug, which is used to treat anxiety and panic disorders.
“It became a way for us to bond,” the singer told Rolling Stone in a revealing profile published Tuesday. “I think I wanted to fit in with him. I wanted to be what he wanted and what he thought was cool and what I thought everyone was doing.”
Noah, who grew up in the limelight with her pop star sister, said she was “surrounded by people who could get it easy,” preferring Xanax over party drugs.
“Once I felt it was possible to silence things for a while and numb your pain, it was over. It just becomes kind of a dark pit, bottomless pit,” she said.
Noah also said the drug kept her sleeping until 8pm for most of the COVID-19 pandemic, claiming it even led to amnesia.
She recalled a promotional interview for her EP, “The End of Everything”, in which she had a physical difficulty staying awake.
“I was completely dozing off and falling asleep, and couldn’t hold my head up or keep my eyes open because I was so far away,” she said of the unaired interview.
Noah said she has been “in recovery” since late 2020.
“I’m not trying to be a spokesperson for recovery or anything like that,” she said. “I’m just going through it myself and figuring it out.”
She continued, “I wake up in the morning and can look in a mirror and go about my day without hating myself. I can comfort and cherish myself.”
Her forthcoming debut album, “The Hardest Part,” which includes tracks like “I Burned LA Down,” will be released on July 15.