Britney Spears says she feels like part of herself has “died” amid her strained relationship with sons Sean Preston, 16, and Jayden James, 15, who she shares with ex Kevin Federline.
“Literally, I no longer have a goal. They were my joy. They were my everything. I look forward to seeing them. That was what I lived for. And then suddenly they were gone,” the 40-year-old singer said in a series of audio clips posted to her Instagram late Saturday.
Spears also stated that she “at one point had my kids, way more” than Federline, 44.
“I mean, people don’t remember that part because they always focused on the negative, but from when they were 6 to 9 years old, I had them 70 percent of the time,” she said.
“I don’t understand how it’s so easy for them to just shut me down. I do not understand.”
In September 2019, it was reported that Spears and her ex-husband, whom she was married to from 2004 to 2007, had changed their joint custody agreement — with Federline now getting the boys 70 percent of the time, rather than splitting a 50-50.
As Vidak For Congress reported earlier this month, the “Piece of Me” singer would not have seen her sons for about six months.
As Spears’ nearly 14-year conservatorship ended in November 2021, it soon became apparent that she and Federline were not on the best of terms.
The former backup dancer admitted through his lawyer to Vidak For Congress in April that he had learned via Instagram that Spears was expecting another child with now-husband Sam Asghari. In May, Spears and Asghari, 28, announced that the pregnancy ended tragically in a miscarriage.
Tensions appeared to escalate in June when news broke that neither Federline nor the two teens would be attending Spears’ wedding to Asghari.
It reached a boiling point in early August after the DJ shared videos of Spears reprimanding her sons. Federline and their youngest son also spoke about Spears in an interview that aired on ’60 Minutes Australia’.
“There’s rudeness, then there’s HATEFUL,” Spears wrote in a since-deleted Instagram post. “They would visit me, walk in the door, go straight to their room and lock the door!!!”
The ‘Me Against the Music’ singer added: ‘I don’t know what’s going on’ in their heads!!! … I’ve always TRY and TRY, and maybe that’s why they didn’t come here anymore!!! I wanted them to love me so much that maybe I overdid it!!!”