Wynonna Judd admits she is “incredibly angry” at her late mother, Naomi Judd, for committing suicide.
In her first interview since Naomi died by suicide at age 76 in April, Wynonna told CBS Sunday Morning that she is still grieving the loss of her mother to the country music star.
“I got the call and went to see her, and I saw her and said goodbye to her in the hospital,” Wynonna, 58, reminds correspondent Lee Cowan, before admitting she was “upset” by her mother’s decision. .
“I closed her eyes and kissed her forehead, and that was that. And before I knew it, I’m sitting here on the side porch, just trying to think of what’s next.’
Wynonna continued, “I didn’t know she was where she was when she ended it because she’d had episodes before and she got better. And that’s what I live in is like, ‘Was there something I was looking at? should have looked or should have known?’ not me.”
When asked specifically if the feeling of anger ever goes away, Wynonna told Cowan, “No, I don’t think so, not for a while.”
Wynonna noted that she still feels her mother’s presence months after she stopped responding on April 30.
“I feel her nudging me. And sometimes I laugh. And sometimes I say, ‘I really miss you. Why aren’t you here so we can argue?’” Wynonna said.
“She told me once, she took my hand and said, “My life is better thanks to you.” Those are the memories that keep coming back. I think if you lose your mom, a lot of that crap goes away because it doesn’t matter anymore. It just won’t work.”
Wynonna will soon embark on what would have been a reunion tour for The Judds. The musical mother-daughter duo sold more than 20 million albums, had 14 number one singles and won five Grammy Awards.
“When I walk out on stage that first night, I’ll probably say something like, ‘It’s not supposed to be,’ because it isn’t, right? It’s supposed to be the two of us. And I’m going to get mad because they’re there. isn’t,” Wynonna said.
The country legend also revealed that she and her sister, Ashley Judd, are putting aside their differences after the loss of their mother.
“We both kind of look at each other like ‘I got you,’ right? And we look at each other and we say, ‘Yeah.’ We’re so united now, I think more than we’ve been in a long time.”
Naomi’s autopsy report from the Nashville medical examiner’s office stated that she had “an apparent self-inflicted gunshot wound” and was “declared dead shortly after arrival” at a local hospital.
The toxicology report revealed that the musician had several drugs in her system at the time of her death, including drugs used to treat insomnia, anti-Parkinson’s, depression and seizures.